I’m Asari (Episode 59): Truth Or Dare, The Truth Is That I Fvcked Up
“Why wouldn’t you be comfortable?” “I don’t know… I just” “I am not married o” he said with a smirk on his face “you better not be” I said half playing and he shook his head “I am not, I promise” he looked at me again with those beautiful eyes.
“Can I think about it?” I asked “sure… you have my number, call or text when you are ready” he replied with no sign of disappointment. I didn’t feel any undertone of pressure from him; I heard sincerity when he told me no pressure and I was grateful for that. We shook hands and he was gone.
I was surprised at myself, a man like Derek Briggs was my “type”… intelligent, successful, tall, and handsome but I don’t know why I didn’t jump on his offer to take me out. The former Asari would have, I assure you.
I know that Abdul has something to do with it and it sucks… it sucks balls, I want to move on and forget about him but I’m not sure if getting involved with another person and complicating my life is the answer. The last time I went out with a guy to make Abdul jealous turned out to be one of the worst nights of my life and I have learnt my lesson. Getting under one man to get over another doesn’t work… it makes things worse… it makes you compare them.
Oh wells, I decided that I wasn’t going to call; I figured that he would get the message when he doesn’t hear from me for about a week and he would take some other girl out. But that was not the case.
Three days later, I received a belated birthday message from him and I was like o… kay; should I reply? Should I ignore? And if I reply, what should I say? Thank you?… Arrgggh. Why men won’t leave me alone is a mystery… I know this sounds like a humble brag but bear with me. I am trying to be a single sane girl in this city.
I didn’t reply to the message, not replying to his message would send a strong message to him that I am not interested and then he would finally get the message that I am not interested but that was not the case; instead, he called me.
“I thought you said that you like polite people?” he asked over the phone. The question was confusing but I answered anyway “yes I do” “so why aren’t you doing the polite thing by replying the birthday message I sent to you?” that was a smart way to put it.
I couldn’t wiggle out of it and I couldn’t even lie that I didn’t see the message so I apologized “I will only accept your apology on one condition” “let me guess… you will only accept my apology if I go out with you” I replied and I couldn’t be more right “you won’t hate it, I promise” “stop making promises you may not be able to keep” I cautioned him
So… yeah… I agreed to go out with him but I gave him my own condition too. The thought of dressing up and going to a fancy restaurant in order to get to know someone gave me anxiety; I didn’t want to go through all that, I wanted an easy going situation. So I told him to take me to a park and thankfully he didn’t ask me any question about it, he just agreed.
The day of the “great” date arrived and we met at Millennium Park; he came with a picnic basket and watching him with the basket from afar as I walked towards him made my heart skip a little.
We rented a mat and hung out under a tree and it was a very nice afternoon; we talked, laughed, played whot, ate and drank… time flew by like no man’s business.
“I have never done this before, do a picnic with someone and I must say that I am having a lot of fun” he said “I am having fun too… to my surprise” I replied stuffing my mouth with meat pie. “Why are you surprised, did you think I was going to bore you?” he asked with a mischievous smile “no” I said and went on to explain almost everything that happened between Abdul and me and how I am still getting over it.
“I understand… take your time” he said softly with compassion in his eyes and it made me want to kiss him but I restrained myself, I think he had an idea because he leaned back on the tree away from me. I don’t know what this will be, I have decided to take it one day at a time; they say it is better to live life focusing on each moment as it comes and that is what I intend to do as it pertains Derek Briggs.